I used to have clear skin in fact, buddies and teachers would compliment me on how great it looked, making me feel pretty and confident. But in my senior four year, I started getting breakouts and things changed. At first, I didn’t think my pimples were unusual: You get a pimple, press or burst it, treat it and it clears up. But mine didn’t go away. That holiday, I could tell by people’s long, awkward glances that they were grossed out by my face of swollen red spots. I went away to college, the stares increased, and I became more self-conscious.

I tried every over-the-counter face wash and cream I could find on Google and pharmacies out there and I started caking on foundation, concealer and powder to hide the bumps. But then again, I couldn’t do much because there’s a limit to makeup at school save for
the weekends and preps.

Nothing worked.I began distancing myself from friends, thinking they’d be embarrassed to be seen with me and I hardly left my room. When I did go out, friends would recommend acne products and I sensed overwhelming disgust radiating from strangers. I wished I could scream, “I wash my face three times a day and still look like this. Don’t judge me!”

THE BREAKING POINT ..Eight months into my pimple nightmare, I worked up the courage to go out to dinner with friends before night preps. Afterward, in my dorm room, my pentup anxiety sent me into a panic attack. I began crying hysterically, thinking that everyone was disgusted by my face. I shook uncontrollably, couldn’t control my
breathing and my body and mind went numb. I called my mom, crying, asking how anyone could stand to be seen with me. I felt helpless.

A week later, I met with a family friend who’s a psychologist and she felt I was suffering from social anxiety and clinical depression. She recommended I see a dermatologist and suggested I confi de in close friends and family so I don’t feel alone. (It helped.) I hate that society makes me feel less pretty because of a thing I can’t control, but I’m working on loving myself.

When I feel insecure, I throw myself into school and music. No matter what people say, it is what’s on the inside that matters most. And I’m doing my best every day to remember that.


  1. Moisturize With Aloe Vera How to Use It + Scrape the gel from the aloe plant out with a spoon. + Apply gel directly to clean skin as a moisturizer. + Repeat 1-2 times per day, or as desired.
  2. Make a Honey and Cinnamon Mask How to Use It + Mix 2 tablespoons honey and 1 teaspoon cinnamon together to form a paste. + After cleansing, apply the mask to your face and leave it on for 10-15 minutes. + Rinse the mask off completely and pat your face dry.
  3. Apply Apple Cider Vinegar How to Use It + Mix 1 part apple cider vinegar and 3 parts water (use more water for sensitive skin). + After cleansing, gently apply the mixture to the skin using a cotton ball. + Let sit for 5-20 seconds, rinse with water and pat dry. Repeat this process 1-2 times per day, as needed.
    Aloe Vera contains antioxidants, enzymes, Vitamins A and C, and it is highly anti-infl ammatory. It can help treat burns, acne and dry skin.

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